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We have 6 more days until we head out on the road towards Ohio. To tell you the truth, not only am I excited but scared as well. I know no one in Cleveland. Yes, I have Kurt's family only two hours away from us, but this is the first time that I will have lived more than 30 minutes away from my family. In particular, my Mom. We are so close. I think it'll be a great learning experience for me and potential to grow more into the woman I am intended to be, but it's still difficult leaving.
My doctor has restricted me to no lifting anything over five pounds. That is making packing and everything a little challenging. So far, Kurt has been great about helping, but I feel like I am just being lazy b/c I can't move what I've already done. I can't do laundry until he gets home to carry the basket for me, ugh, it's irritating. I do have to admit that it's somewhat nice b/c I have moved 29 times in my life (this move is #29), so I am tired of packing and moving. Honestly, there are bins that I haven't unpacked in four years b/c I am so used to packing and moving. It's sad really. I've told Kurt that this move is our 2nd to last. We will then move from Cleveland to Columbus and build our dream home, then I am done! I would love to have a house where our kids grow up in and return to during holidays, etc. I never had that but always dreamt about it. We always lived in a different house growing up. There are houses that I remember fondly, definitely ones that helped mold me into the person I am today. However, I never felt like I "belonged" due to moving all the time. I also feel that although it's easy for me to make friends, I do hold back a little and prevent getting too close b/c I am afraid I'm going to move again. I am hoping to break that habit when we move this time. I know we will be in Ohio the rest of our lives, we might just move from Cleveland to Columbus. Those cities are only two hours from each other, so it might help to make friends, b/c if we do move to Columbus, they will still be really close so I won't feel like I can't get too involved in the friendship.
Even through all my fears and anxiety about the move, I am truly excited to open this next chapter with my fiancé. Especially with the fact that we are driving across the country. Last time I did that, I was by myself in the car, just me and Gizmo. It will be fun to be with someone and entering new adventures while on the drive. I am sure they will make for some fun Blog entries, especially when it comes to Gizmo! Not sure how much internet access I will have, but I will try to write when I can.
Well, last night I got a good night's rest. I am thinking that my sleep schedule/habit is finally getting back to normal! Usually, I cry myself to sleep. It's been a rough couple of weeks for me. I am really sad about moving away from my family, but know that this is a great learning experience for me. I've never been more than twenty minutes away from my Mom. This will give me a chance to grow more and for Kurt and I to become closer, although I didn't know that was possible! We will be two hours away from his family, but mainly it will just be us. Kurt tells me that it's me, him and Gizmo against the world. I think it will be nice for our "little family" to have some time to grow. It will take me some time to adjust, but ultimately, I think it's a good thing. I sure hope to make friends fast though, I don't know anyone in the area we will be living! That's a little scary.
Onto another exciting topic, my body. Seems that she's been in a bit of a rut lately and I don't seem to be on the same page. I used to know my body inside and out, and I mean the slightest twinge, I knew what that meant. Not lately though, it's as though I am being kept in the dark. I cry at the drop of a hat and can't seem to get a grip! It was brought to my attention that I may just be experiencing postpardum depression. It totally makes sense. I read up on symptoms and I meet a lot of them. It's taking my body some time to "heal", so I've decided to stop taking Metformin and allow myself to have a complete cycle on my own before going back on it. I am hoping that it won't take long for my body to "regulate" itself again. All-in-all, I am positive about my progress and getting better. I am thinking our road is going to be a little bumpy, but I can see the "finish line" (to quote a good friend), in the distance, which is a good thing. I am starting to gain my hope and faith again.
Hello, My name is Jennifer and I started a Blog as a way to vent, share and a form of therapy. I want to write about everything and anything in regards to what happens in my life. So, it's more of like my own personal online journal that I want to share with all of you. I have a lot happen to me on a daily basis and thought it would be fun to share. So here is a little about me. I will turn 28 this April and am engaged to a wonderful man. We currently live in North Hollywood, CA but are in the process of moving back to Ohio. He is from Ohio and we chose to move b/c we are wanting to live somewhere that the cost of living is cheaper. We are also trying to start a family, so we want our kids to be raised with the same morals and values that we both grew up with. I grew up in PA and TX. When I was 6, we moved from PA to TX and then back to PA when I was 13. Then in 2006, my parents offered for me to move back in with them, go back to school and move to CA. I jumped on that offer right away. I've always had a pull in my heart to be in CA. Turns out, it was mainly b/c this is where I met my Soulmate. I've also made some pretty great, lifelong friends! I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) in December of 2009. It's been a rough journey, trying to figure out exactly what PCOS is and how to treat it. You can find more about PCOS in my PCOS info section. I am currently attending college as a Psych major, minoring in Sexual Studies. My dream is to be a Sex Therapist and work with couples, rape & molestation victims, self-image, transgendered individuals, teach parents how to comfortably talk to their kids about sex, etc. I've always love Psychology and had intended on studying Serial Killers and their behavior, much like the team on the TV show Criminal Minds does. However, that means no time for family, and since I've met Kurt, I'd really like a family... so I nixed that. I took a Sexual Behavior class and fell in love!! I asked the professor how I go about pursuing a Sex Therapy career and he told me the road I needed to take... so here I am! I will try and transfer to OSU or some other college in Ohio once we move, so my schooling is on hold for this semester. Good thing too, I needed a break. Well, I need to get back to more packing, etc. I hope I didn't bore you too much with my Into. I know parts of it are missing, but I will fill those in later. Also, anything you would like to know more about or more details, just let me know and I will gladly tell you. I am an open book. :) Have a great day/night!
